The word cancer tends to elicit a fear response in most people. No one wants to be diagnosed with cancer. Cancer is seen to be tantamount to death. The words go together. It is because cancer is a device of our enemy, Satan, who is the author of confusion. His purpose is to steal, kill and destroy. Cancer happens when normal cells get confused about what role they are suppose to fulfill and become something they were never intended to be. They rebel...just like the author of confusion did.
Cancer does not scare me. It is not because cancer can't hurt me, if left to fulfill it's course, it most certainly can. In fact, it can kill me. But I am aware of a greater power. A power stronger than death. Jesus Christ beat death by rising from the grave Himself, and the Bible says,"If the same Spirit who raised Christ from the dead dwells in you, He will quicken your mortal body."
Even if cancer won by death, I am not afraid, because I can't really die. I am assured to live forever in God's presence.
But we Christians must understand that death is still the enemy. It cuts short the plans of God for a life. It is a battle won by the enemy because it snuffs out life. Jesus is life. He came to give life. We should never give up the battle for life or buy the 'Well, I guess it was just God's will' excuse for our failure to fight the battle. We are at war!
Pain is another word that brings fear. No one likes to suffer. I have been in some pain lately. Pain can be either good or bad. I do not try to interpret it. It can be healing or a symptom of something going wrong. I do not let pain lie to me. The Bible tells me I am healed. Jesus purchased healing on the cross with my salvation. Done deal.
The bottom line is: fear causes chemical reactions in our bodies that suppress our immune systems. It is a tool of the devil. If he can get our eyes off God and on to the thing we fear (cancer or pain), he has won. The Lord wrapped me in a protective cloak before the diagnosis of cancer. It is not in my own strength that I am not fearful, it is because of His Divine help. I cannot take credit. The same strenght and peace He has given me He will give to you. He is no respector of persons. Don't let the enemy get your eyes off the One Who is life.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Monday, January 18, 2010
Praise the Lord (ahead of time) for the Battle is Won!
I'm sorry it has taken me a few days to get this news to you. I received my blood test results Friday night and they were terrific! All of my immune functions have tripled my best results! Praise God!
But I knew the battle was won when I woke up last Tuesday. I felt it in my spirit. The Lord impressed me to just start praising Him for the finished work. This was after a long season of resting in Him. I literally felt like I was sleeping on my Father's lap...then I woke up and realized the heavens are open and it is time to praise Him once again. This battle started with praise and it will end with praise. I know that I know that the victory is secure. How could this be when I haven't fought for it?
Well, He did it, through His body. Many, many people have been praying for me as I have been sleeping...they have secured the victory that Christ already provided for me. I have rested and believed, but I know the body of Christ has fought for me, just like my immune system fights the cancer. It wasn't my battle, it was the Lord's.
The other exciting development is that the nutritionist and I believe the primary tumor is dead. About four weeks ago it suddenly became very heavy. I felt like I was carrying a bowling ball on my chest (this thing has a 17inch circumference, so it's BIG). I didn't understand the significance of that until I read an excellent book on cancer salves. It said tumors get very heavy when they die and you can have liver and digestive disturbances. That's what I have been experiencing. My liver results did improve but are still low. The tumor then began to soften and become moldable, like clay. This is weird! I wake up in the morning and my breast has taken the shape of whatever was placing pressure on it as I slept. It slowly regains it's own shape during the day.
I am excited and looking forward to the next step: seeing these tumors shrink and dissappear!
Please continue to pray for my liver and digestive systems, tumor shrinkage, weakness caused by the tumor load on my system, etc. The battle belongs to the Lord!
But I knew the battle was won when I woke up last Tuesday. I felt it in my spirit. The Lord impressed me to just start praising Him for the finished work. This was after a long season of resting in Him. I literally felt like I was sleeping on my Father's lap...then I woke up and realized the heavens are open and it is time to praise Him once again. This battle started with praise and it will end with praise. I know that I know that the victory is secure. How could this be when I haven't fought for it?
Well, He did it, through His body. Many, many people have been praying for me as I have been sleeping...they have secured the victory that Christ already provided for me. I have rested and believed, but I know the body of Christ has fought for me, just like my immune system fights the cancer. It wasn't my battle, it was the Lord's.
The other exciting development is that the nutritionist and I believe the primary tumor is dead. About four weeks ago it suddenly became very heavy. I felt like I was carrying a bowling ball on my chest (this thing has a 17inch circumference, so it's BIG). I didn't understand the significance of that until I read an excellent book on cancer salves. It said tumors get very heavy when they die and you can have liver and digestive disturbances. That's what I have been experiencing. My liver results did improve but are still low. The tumor then began to soften and become moldable, like clay. This is weird! I wake up in the morning and my breast has taken the shape of whatever was placing pressure on it as I slept. It slowly regains it's own shape during the day.
I am excited and looking forward to the next step: seeing these tumors shrink and dissappear!
Please continue to pray for my liver and digestive systems, tumor shrinkage, weakness caused by the tumor load on my system, etc. The battle belongs to the Lord!
Monday, January 4, 2010
Five Months
It's been five months since being diagnosed, almost eight months since finding the tumors. I have had challenges lately with feeling weak. I know it is because I am anemic and am probably not getting enough protein. When I remember to eat bee pollen which is high in protein, I feel better. I am also taking molasses for the anemia.
The primary tumor got suddenly very heavy about three weeks ago. It was extremely noticable. I find it very difficult to wear a bra, even the very large sports bras I have been wearing. I read afew days ago that when tumors die they become heavy. Wouldn't that be something? I am wondering if that is why my liver seems to be overwhelmed. The same book said the tumor dying would cause gastric and liver problems as my body rids itself of the tumor. I'd like to believe that is what is going on. I will be sending my blood work in tomorrow morning to find out more. Until then...
The primary tumor got suddenly very heavy about three weeks ago. It was extremely noticable. I find it very difficult to wear a bra, even the very large sports bras I have been wearing. I read afew days ago that when tumors die they become heavy. Wouldn't that be something? I am wondering if that is why my liver seems to be overwhelmed. The same book said the tumor dying would cause gastric and liver problems as my body rids itself of the tumor. I'd like to believe that is what is going on. I will be sending my blood work in tomorrow morning to find out more. Until then...
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