From My 19 y.o. Daughter

From the Daughter of a Breast Cancer Patient
My mom has breast cancer. And unlike most people she and my dad did not freak and go running to the modern day doctors who “supposedly” have all the answers for health these days. They waited. They prayed. Then they acted on what they believe to be the right course of action to not only cure my mom's breast cancer but to all around give her the health she deserves to have. Most people that I know, including me at first, think that it is a stupid move, a very common belief among todays world. But over the past 2 months I have come from wanting to beg my mother to just get it cut off and radiated from her to firmly believing that radiation and surgery are not the way to go. And if you knew me you would realize that making me truly believe in something is no easy task.
When my mother was first diagnosed it crushed everything I knew. The whole foundation of my life was shattered as I had never felt it before. When I wasn't at work or sleeping the rest of my time was spent sitting in my mothers living room. It was a good 2 weeks before my buddy got me to go hang out with him and a few friends that I had hung out with a couple times. It was late one night after mom had already gone to bed (so I wouldn't miss a minute with her) when I went to hang out with him and one of my new friends, Preston. At this time I was mad at my parents for not doing anything medical to help my mom. I got to know Preston a little better that night. I learned his mother died of breast cancer when he was 12. She had gone through all the surgeries and chemotherapy only to be miserably sick the rest of her short life. Without me asking, Preston offered a small piece of information that I was not expecting. He said, and I quote, “If there was one thing I could have done different, it would have been to beg her NOT to do chemotherapy. She was so very sick the last few years of her life that we didn't get to enjoy any of it. If you want my advice, I would say beg her not to do chemo, enjoy every minute you have with her, and do something that would make her proud.”
Over the next few weeks I thought a lot about what he had said. I listened to what mom and dad were doing to fight this and all the books mom was reading about chemotherapy and natural detox. In the end I came to the conclusion that I had done the same thing as most people do and had panicked.. I had panicked and went straight to the first conclusion that we are taught here in America, that doctors are gods. They can do anything and they are the only way to get well. Since then I have tried my best to do exactly what Preston wasn't able to do when his mother was here. As most of you have heard I haven't had to beg my parents not to do chemo, I try to spend as much time as I can over at my parents house, and I'm still working on the proud part.
I am so grateful that Preston is my friend and that he cared enough to let me in on his life changing experience enough to try to help me with mine. And I want everyone to know how proud I am of my parents. They have stood up to so many people for what they believe in and are doing about this cancer. And now it is my turn to stand up for them. So today for the first time since this has all started I have given my opinion on how my parents are taking care of her breast cancer. And I say way to go, Mom and Dad!
-Sam, the daughter of a breast cancer patient.

Starting My Second Fast

Tomorrow I will start my second week-long juice fast. I have received all my suppliments and am looking forward to getting started building up my immune system. I feel great and look very healthy (I'm told!). People cannot believe I am in end-staged cancer.
The fasts are not hard for me at all. The Lord has given me a grace with this diet change and the fasting that is really supernatural. I am grateful and continue resting and worshipping during this recovery-time I am experiencing. Rest is very important to rebuild the immune system.
My frame of mind is focused on Jesus and I don't even really remember I have cancer most of the time. He truly "keeps in perfect peace those whose minds are stayed on Him, for they trust in Him." I will be praying and worshipping as much as possible during the next week, and would appreciate your prayers as well. Thank you!

Blood Test Results

I had a nutritionist analyze a sample of my blood. I received the results and spoke to him about them today. My immune system is barely functioning. Across the board, every organ, gland, and cell group responsible for my defense is down. It is also not communicating among itself to work properly even if it was built up. I'm in trouble.
The nutritionist has suggested a plan for building it up. It will cost over $1,700/mo. (not including shipping!) to impliment. Since my healing is not yet manifest we feel the need to continue doing all we can nutritionally to keep me healthy. As you know our finances are less than adequate to cover that kind of committment, but in the last two days $800 did come in from family and a few friends who did not know the need so we can start and trust God for each month's supply. I am supposed to have my blood tested again four weeks after I begin the regimen to see if my body is responding properly. Each blood analysis costs $200.
I have been reading alot from Dr. Lorraine Day http://www.drday.com/ . She had breast cancer at about the same stage as mine (same size, too, only mine is buried in my breast). She beat it completely by nutrition alone. She has been cancer free for over 10 years. It is a very inspiring story. I admire her stand as well as the courage she has in exposing the barbaric way the medical establishment deals with cancer. Her teachings are very eye-opening and educational. I do not agree with all her theology, but I admire a faith that looks solely to Jesus and Jesus alone for the answers to all problems.

Tumor Trivia

Did you know?
*Tumors feed on sugar and animal protein.
*A tumor morphs it's DNA once a week. That's why the same drugs that worked against it at
first quickly loose their effectiveness.
*Women increase their risk of breast cancer by 2% for each mammogram they get.

Intimate Issues

Very soon after my diagnosis I received the same prophesy from different sources. Basically the gist of the message was that I knew Jesus as my Savior, as my Lord, and as my Husband (the woman who said this had no idea I had been divorced and widowed and how I had clung to Him as Husband when my own husbands weren't doing the job!). But now He wanted me to know Him as my Father. I was told to just climb up into His lap, lay my head on His chest, and rest in Him. God gave me a picture of me as a little girl. I was so happy, twirling in a field of white daisies and picking them with little pudgy-girl hands, then giving them to Him with total delight. I hadn't felt that kind of joy in my relationship with Him for, well, maybe ever. I have always been so serious about SERVING God, like He was some faraway ruler who only notices us if we're doing something for Him. Don't get me wrong, I had known Him in suffering, He was always there for me then. But my life had become about suffering. That was all I knew. And, if you knew the details of my life, you'd know a lot of it definitely was suffering. I began to identify and fellowship around the suffering Christ to the total exclusion of the RISEN Christ! Therefore I had little joy.
He began to show me that He wanted me on the other side of the cross. The side where Jesus lives in resurrection power and we do, too. He showed me that Christ is in me and that He took the penalty for sin so I didn't need to suffer to be more like Him. I am like Him if I am identifying with Him and walking by His Spirit. This went hand in hand with my healing. Can He use suffering to make us like Him? For sure! He's just that great. Does He send cancer to make us suffer to be more like Him? NO! Cancer is definitely of the devil!
Luke 11:11-13 "If a son shall ask bread from any of you that is a father, would he give Him a stone? or if he asked a fish give him a serpent? or if he asked an egg would give him a scorpion? If ye being evil know how to give good gifts unto your children: how much more shall your heavenly FATHER give the Holy Spirit to them that ask Him?"
There was the title of His new identity in my life: FATHER.
Suddenly I knew He wanted to give me the kingdom as my Father. As my Father, He wants to give me my inheritance!
On Daddy's lap I have learned a whole new rest. I am resting from trying to receive healing by earning it, by striving for it, by figuring it out myself. It is all done and all I have to do is sit in His lap and rest, trusting Him for the manifestation in His perfect timing.
I have also been given liberty to be me in a whole new way. I have never expressed anger to God before. Only acquiescence to His will and acceptance. After all, I was too spiritual, I wouldn't get mad...well, there's alot of things I get mad about now. As a child, I can get mad about things I don't understand, knowing that my Father understands all and will sort out the emotions I am feeling for me. It is a healthy place to be with Him. And it is a place of peace not dependent on my behavior.
While at Redding I had a major meltdown. I swore! If you knew me, you'd know I don't swear! The pressure of 'getting healed' was getting to me. I had been to the healing rooms by then and no manifestation of healing yet. I began to be alittle worried about how my children would react. If I wasn't healed that weekend we needed to make some serious decisions. At least we thought we did. Do I go in for treatment? Do we move or stay in Texas? Do we go back to Ukraine? What was God saying? I felt terrible and spent after my explosion to Him. But He just ignored it and left behind a blessing of favor. That night was when Heidi Baker preached about favor and I received two words about being favored of the Lord. He knew me and sorted it out for me. I am so safe with Him!
I want everyone to be able to enter into His rest with me. It is so delightful to be known by Him! Do you realize that is where our true source is? If we have that, true intimacy with the Father, we are in need of nothing else! That is the cake and icing of life! Anything else is just bonus! All our problems are solved. Cancer is so little in comparison. I don't need less cancer, I need more Jesus! How can cancer stand in His glory?
Please, won't you join me and enter into His rest?

HOW DARE THEY???

http://bcaction.org/index.php?page=liberate-the-breast-cancer-genes
Go to this site to see the serious implications patenting human genes has on our health care. Since when have we allowed our government to grant patents on parts of OUR bodies or food supplies (check out Monsanto and how they have patented all the seeds they can and now control our food supply)? Traditionally and in the patent laws, nothing that grows naturally or parts of the human body (ie. God grown) could be patented. Our government is breaking that law! This is serious and we need to get angry! The BRCA-1 and 2 gene mutations are what cause triple-negative breast and ovarian cancer in many cases and should be openly researched by anyone who wants to, not just Myriad. These are my genes, these are your genes, these genes belong to all of us and were created by GOD. Oh, please, educate yourselves as to what our government is allowing these large companies do to us! They are denying God's creation and authority over these created things.

Counting the Cost?!?!

In case anyone wondered, I thought I'd share from the business side of this little cancer venture. The first day of tests, a mammogram and an ultrasound, cost alittle less than $800. My biopsy proceedure the next day cost $9000. Yes, you read that right. Two days worth of cancer cost almost $10,000. And that was just the beginning!!! We do not have insurance, which I was told was a good thing for us, more government handouts I guess. My husband was laid off work with many of his colleagues in March. They have kept him busy some since then, but we did qualify (I think) for a grant to pay for the diagnostics part of this venture.
In order to see the team of doctors I needed to be funded first. Yes. You can't get into a cancer doctor unless they know you have funding. There is a breast cancer medicaid available but we made too much to qualify for it at first. Eric's hours were cut to 12 per week which did bring us under the qualifying amount but by that time we had decided not to use the doctors anyway.
The stripping in our lives right now is intense. We are not bringing in enough to pay the bills, and have no idea where God wants us. I have been spending my time resting while my husband cares for me and everything else. A friend brought us a bed so that we could at least sleep together instead of on blow-up matresses on the floor. I don't care what happens to the house, etc. Material posessions really aren't high on my list of priorities. In fact, we had just returned from giving our furniture away so that we could sell everything else and be available to God for anything He wanted when we received the cancer diagnosis. Sounds like a frontal attack, huh?
Our prayers are for provision and guidance. We need to know His will. Do we move closer to family? Do we stay where we are? We were supposed to go to Ukraine in October. Our work there is in question, too. What do we DO, Lord?
*An additional note: We recently heard a cancer survivor talk about his treatments. Each chemotherapy treatment he received cost him $35,000. He had to pay out of pocket until he was accepted into the VA, at which time the cost went down to $50. Hummmmm!